New years resolutions

Its that time of year again when everyone makes some sort of resolution. There are so many things that I could resolve to to this year, but why accomplish or strain to do them all. I thought very long and hard about the resolutions for 2012, the one that sticks out the most? That would be to be happy.

So much I have done to make others happy and waited to satisfy my own needs, that I can't just sacrafice myself for others. It may be my nature but I can't just keep killing myself this way. I just spent the last 10 years waiting, I don't want to wait anymore. This year is a huge one for me. A finalized divorce, a cross country move and a new way to think of the world around me.

This move to Saint Loius is huge, my first time living out of the Seattle area. My mother isn't happy, but I know she wants me to be free. I will admit I am a little scared to move so far from home. But really in order to accomplish something big you need to take chances. And this is my chance. I can't wait to be here, a just settle down. I think that there is so much to accomplish that I know that it will be awkward at first. But I will manage.

So much the way I think is based on the future. I really hope that my love can keep up.

My list for 2012 is the following
~ Be happy. Things will get you down, but you have to pick yourself up and brush yourself off to just keep on going.
~ Eat healthy. Make good choices and walk. Try to only have a soda a day, drink more water, and coffee with non fat milk.
~ Don't wait on your dreams. In any case chase dreams when all possible.
~ Write more, and socialize when I can. Blogging and making myself be a little more outgoing. Exploring things that I have never done.

I don't want to make it long just achievable. I do know that this last year I did accomplish one, I have started on the path to happiness. Thank you for all my listening. Until next year! .

A new year a new me?

I guess for the longest time I have been living a lie. A lie that you can't get away from, yourself. I have struggled for many a months, years, days and nights to find myself. I ask the question often to myself and to others, who am I ? What makes me well me? You never thought that by not being alone for a few weeks, years is important in finding your identity.

This new year, I plan on finding myself, what I want, what I need as a person. I can say right now, what I want in life, is to be happy. Be it poly, or be it leaving my current life to find something more fulfilling I just want to be happy. I am tired of having friends ask me in game, "are you okay?" As if something isn't right. Well they are intuitive and they know that there is something wrong.

Plans for the year 2011, make my final decision, start to better myself health wise, find out who I am , spiritually and personally, and lastly be happy. I have a lot to look forward to, building a new relationship, trying to repair what I have, and the possibility to move to a new state.

Here is to a new year of positive changes, and discovery.